3-3-03
today i got my first pay chekk :S only $100.23 and i was expecting like 189!!! its bull shit they sed i onyl worked 20 hours in all my time being there...about 8 days...wen i worked like 31 in my first 4 fukkin days!!!!!!!its BS it really is. n then to make it worse they took 11.28 out for taxes. omg im 15 i dont need fukkin taxes! wat the fukk r taxes ne way? errrr but hey its 50.14 towards cali!!!! hehehehehehhheheheh yeehaw julie the working bug!!so today was loooooong n boooooring n i work tomorro n wednesday at the wiso of korse...n it sucks of korse but its all good another 14 hours to my pay. added. this dude ej sed i was hot :$ if only the smiley showed up the embarressed one i mean lol! hmm.... howdy bean! hey guys lets make a band practice friday or saturday k???
3-1-03
whoa todays march first. pretty kool only 4 months till skool is out. only 4 months left of the damn 9th grade. of being a fish. so today i called off work i cant stand going to work on a weekend. im going to ask to work on skool nites so i can have my friday off n saturday off. hey my next week skedul i want to work monday...thursday and sunday. not friday saturday or wednesday. im going to work at 8 am tomorro :S damn rite? im really hapy bean had fun!! dude im happy u had fun!! its a step in ur life. hey y du u make ur self mad? i make my self mad a lot too so its ok. so hmm... thats it see ya
2-23-03
omg today!!! errr....i hate this web site!! the god damn web server is such a bitch!! we just added all kinds of kick ass shit to the site n then boom everything is like unable to b seen!! its all little white squares n red X's!!! n i cant sleep!! i try to sleep n i cant!!! i lay there waiting for sleep to come n then it never duz!! n in the past 2 days ive had like fukkin 12 hours if that of sleep! i have to get up early in the moring for stupid reasons every god damn day it pisses me off! im sick of skool being cancelled n having to make up the fukkin missed days! im sick of it!! fuk the skool!!arghy! ahhh egg rolls!! i feel better byebye
2-21-03
well i have work today sucks i know.. but hey its money in ym pocket n im happy for that. i work until 10:3opm n then go back at 8am...on saturday. sucks. last nite totally sucked!!! i was t boos cuz i havent seen her in a while n i wanted to go spend some time with her n all. well her n michele pretty mch ganged up on me n it was 10n i was tired so i "went to sleep" but i herd michele bashin me like saying " wat if bill came here n sed hey lets go party n julie sed no??" n boos like "fuk that i'd go!" n michels "me too!" giggle giggle...blah blah. so then they start having jolly fun cuz julie is sleeping n cant hear ne thing they say... "hey lets put make up on her" , "hey if she dint wake up wen u did that lets do this.." n it pissed me off so i called home n my sister my kind sister emily came n got me at 12am!! thank u! i will never return to boos with michele agen!!!!
2-18-03
well to days tuesday no skool...no skool to morro cuz the damn idiots r stupid n wont let us go!! even tho the roads r clear!! arghy. im pissed off cuz now im going to skool half way thru my fukkin sumer vacation all i want to fukkin do is graduate b4 im fukkin 20!!! err i swear skool SUX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 i wish it'd burn!!! or a tornadoe would ruin it!! all the book swould get torn up n the tiles melt! the bricks would disinergrate n the roof would cave in!! the water fountains would clog up n explode the balls would deflate n the locks would rust...the paper would disinagrate into the ground n pencils would grow into trees...the lead would kill all the ignorant teachers n students... n exspecially the lil prick in the office who thunks hes tuff shit. errrr.... bean wat the heck is with ur horoscopes???
2-17-03
no skool today no skool tomorro...work on friday see ya.
2-9-03
i have a JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im a working girl!!!!!!!!!!1 hehehehehehe i work at the wisp now!! yee haw!!! im good!
2-8-03
hey kris its bug...u know..."jonathan" this is the real me! JULIE NIXIN! i love this colour its fresh. first off last nite was lame...i exercised for hours (out f bordum) i listened to music/ drew a weird pics of a dude who wants sumthin in envy of sumthin/ and watched TV!! i hate TV! dude its lame it'll fry ur brain. i want my black hair back and i cant wait till i have looooong hair agen! please grow grow grow grow! i hope i'll go see micky or goo tonite...well see ya
2-7-03
hey bean dude...okies i red ur little thingy mo bob...dude u r lame!!!!!!!!!! seriously!! omg please would u just GET OVER IT!! if u keep acting like no one likes u then NO ONE WIL!!! seriously its a bad attitude! why cant u just pick ur self up out of ur self pity n see things form the best not the worst!! no one is out to get u! no one wants to hurt u! no one hates u!!!!! jeeeeeeezzzzzuussssss ccccchhhhhrrrrriiiiisssssssttttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
2-6-03
today was a wonderful day im sending kris the truth in ym letter n i feel good about it! i even directed her here just in case she thought i was being lame n liening AGEN! well hey kris im not! this is my web site n im BUG!! the "jon" u have been riting is just a imaginary frend of mine that i made up to have fun....but now hes running my life n i must stop him..jonathan is dead and JULIE is alive!!!! im ALIVE!!! ALIVE!!! hey dude no hard feelings...mr.perffi is a wack guy...n im not home so i must go...see ya!
2-4-03
whoa its been a while. the funniest thing happened yesterdee...me bean kipp n carly went to the movies to see darkness falls (by the way it sucks) and i told my mom i'd call her wen the movie was over. well i got there at 6pm n the movie startedat 5:50pm so i was late. well the movie ended at 7 n so i tried to call my mom the phone was BZ!!! carly's dad came n took her n kipp home n me n bean were stranded!! i tried callin back every 10mins n it was BZ!! so like an hour goes by n me n bean walk to the gas station to get ice cream we come ack call my house BZ...we go back to station after walking around the theater n sittin on the curb for 20mins n chillin at the windows n shit n we got gold fish n then we came back tried agen BZ! so we called beans house n her dad was sleeping her mom was sick n we were stranded for at least an hour more n by 9:30pm no one came to pikk us up! so finally beans dad comes takes me home n i walk int he door n go "did u forget about me??" n moms like "i was waiting for u to call.." n dad gotcocky n goes "u know why it was BZ? cuz it was in UR room off the hook for an hour! we just found it now." n i was like "well hello! its only been 5hours sence the movie started!! i sed it'd b over by 8pm! not 10!" errrr they seriously did it on purpose! well then today andy's van got stuck n my emily n amy had to push it out of the snow up a hill (we're talking a HUGE van!) it was hell. my wrists hurt n so do my ankels...n kris sed she was going to visit me!! omg no! n im paranoid now. it ruined my day. well see ya.
1-26-03
okies much to day on some things that i can not stand ne more!!! okies first off LIEING!!!! specailly cummin from my closest frend. well u c...sence jan.1st i have not spent one fukkin nite or day with her. she promised me every weekend for the past month...guess wat? she dint even chill with me once! shes been at another frends house and im let in the cold. seriously there is only so much i can take. juice is expelled from skool...shes punished i cant see her ne more...goo..i dont even hang out wih her ne more shes bz...and michele has other more important plans. well i will say i did rite michele a letter tellin her how i feel and i did tell her not to make plans with me unless she planned on keeping them....i also told her not make plans with me n then make plans with boo for the same day/nite...its a terrible feeling!! n im very pissed! i hate being promised something n then having it taken away as if it were my own virginity. i feel raped damnit!
just once i dont wanna have to beg my best frend to hang out with me!! i feel like a lost dog! all i want is one weekend alone with my best frend. n o boo! no gary! no hard feelings. but in the hall way thursday i swear i herd michele say "i even told me mom not to let me go to boos cuz this weekend im stayin with u!!!!!" ohh....maybe i dint hear that...im just blind n deaf. so friday comes micheles at boos. her new home i mite as well say...and i call...n boo goes "hello? whos this? hey julie wats up?" blah blah blah...she hands it to michele n says in a very rude way "its julie..." like it was a bad thing!!!! so i go hey dude wats up? wat happened to r plans? "wat plans? u told me not to call u or make plans with u?" omfg!!! i got really mad n desided to jsut get off the phone n find some happiness...at the mall!! guess wat ? i went to the mall expecting to just go up n get the movie my mother wanted n leave but JUICE!!! was there!!! i was sooooooooo happy!!!! i gave JUICE a HUGE HUG!!!!! and we hung out for about an hour. that made my day! (i just remembered i have to to rite n essay...shit!) ne way we laffed so much int he first two seconds it made up for my insanity from not seeing ne one out side my family in a month! n then i had enuff laffs for the month. im happy now THANKIES JUICE-KA-BAR!!!! well i actually talked to Rita...sed hi or w/e n she dint seem to hold ne thing agenst me...so its alrite. hopefully juice will b able to come out n play soon.
1-15-03
i just herd austin say my name n it sounds like jooolee....like a hick! lmao!! ne way now to move on....juice got suspended from skool..for...shall we say drugs. she mite b expelled!! but rite now its 10days. well we're hoping she wont get expelled. n hopfully she just gets 10days. we're all very sad! n want u back juice!!!!!! at least i am! n i do! i have no one to rite notes to n pass in the hall between 5th n 6th period! i miss u man!! :'(!!!! come back come back!! juice!!! juicey!!! heheh heheh hehhe okies laters ya'll!
1-11-03
im bord! my parents r out!
1-10-03
first i;d like to say that the pot smoking logo thingy on the home page isnt a good idea so who ever put it ther TAKE IT OFF!!!! hello i have a father that will kill me if he finds out n juice u have a muther that did find out n hello!!!! bean u have parents that r psycho wen it comes to drugs!!! c'on ppl b smart take it off n put it on ur own page sumwhere where i cant get introuble for it! thank u. n also i got my nose pierced n im kinda whacked out cuz i never spend ne time wiith micky ne more. shes always with boo or gary n its kinda annoying...i mean r we not best frends? n did u not promise me every weekend a month ago?? yah i mite sound bitchy but im not trying to b i just wish things were like they use to b. im having a lot of fun "bonding" with juice n all but dude...mickky...wtf?? i love u all very much but theres a lot of problems...mikky never keeps her promises...juice got caught (but u also saved my back thank u sooo soooo soooooo much!!!! ur my pal!) n beans depressed to hell n back n dude!!! y du u keep acting like i NEVER invite u newhere with me????? omg thats so annoying i do too!! i invite u all the damn time!its not my fault ur parents suck! hey bean i invited u last time i got water...n guess wat i never tol du not to come ur mom did! n the reason i never told u about sarah is cuz i never got around to it. sorry! but u did take that way too seriously! omg...way too seriously! im addicted to tv...n im sick of being lied to, caught n made out to b a evil goth that only thinks of death n dyes me hair too much! im sick of being told wat to do all the time!!! im going to get my head shaved n i dont care wat ne one thinks! n u know y im doing that? bcuz i can n i am!!! i sneezed....this post is not to affend my best frends im just expressing myself with a bad choice of words so peace ya'll i luv u all a lot its nothin personal! im just pointing out things i see! n juice thanks a agen ur a real frend man!!
1-2-03
its now the next year!!! n i will b 15 in about 5 days...eek!! so kool. im getting my nose pierced either tomorro or mondee cant wait!!! n we have a new member to the band named sarah shes groovy...shes the lead guitarist n im rhymth...wait..rythm...w/e!!
11-24-02 2:38am
hey dudes this is my new journal like juice im keeping this online journal...i moved last weekend so i dont have a pcp to type on rite now...i will have one soon tho so look for my journal to b on its way soon im gonna rite about yesterday cuz its kinda early the next day.well yesterday i met Bob and he was very nice to me! he invited me to go for a swim and then he asked me if i wanted to fly! he made my muscles jump and my head spin which was really fun! and then me n juice came to her house n she rapped a table thingy up with red yarn after we took tons of pics...this one in particular we enjoi cuz it shows just how Bob really works! hes so sweet! so ne way juice n me laughed till r throats felt tite...we laughed till she had to make me leave so she wouldnt have an accident....we laughed untilr eyes watered n feltlike they mite pop out....we laugh till drool was pouring like a fountain of youth....we laughed until 2:30am 91/2 hours!!!of laughter...we lafted till we forgot about reality...we laughed until we forgot why we laughed to begin with...we laughed until this moment becuz we r so dumb. juice discovered thatshe is really "talented" wen shes around Bob cuz she can rap a table that she saved with red ugly yarn. she can wiggle her toes n its amazing!! just how fast can u wiggle UR toes?? i just giggled n spit on the pcp...umm so ne way see ya for today....this morning this is a pic of juice n me!!n a little bit of Bob is in us...
3:49pm tuesday 26,2002
hey jean i just wanna say im sorry for hurting ur feelings im am wat u sed "insensible" or w/e i know wat i did was mean n uncareing for ur feelings but u know wat u were doing to me was killing me inside n altho i tried to act like it as no big deal my feelings bottled up inside n then u got the worst of it...so now i desided to just put an end to things sooner insted of letting them eat at me until one day i blow up at u :) im still not saying its ok for u to complain to me all day long about stupid things like me not cummin over to ur hosue (cuz of ur mom) and things like that...i do want to hang out i do want to spend time with u but i cant come to ur house until ur mom forgets about the "stuff" n u kno wat STUFF i mean!! i cant put my self in jepardy like that i wont! n if my "life" depends on it....then its a good reason to stay away. n wat i rote last week...umm yes i ment every word but i also dint...if that makes sence?? i ment everything but in a nicer way...i do care about u n ur feelings..u r my good frend...and sence i felt comfy with u being my good frend i expressed my feelings...in a not so nice way which was rong/...but rite...i mean i can tell u to ur face all the things that bug me about everyone including u but wen i rite it down i get it all out with out a smile to make u think im joking around n then the message is clear! i prolly sound like a "poser" or sumthin but i cant express anger face to face with u! u make me smile n then i feel if i yell at u and u have a tear in ur eye...but u know u cant always cry...u cant cry all ur life it dusent work that way. u cant cry n expect everything to b ok agen...sure i feel the tension between us just like u do n all but it'll pass...just try to remember we're human n frends n sence we're human we're gonna have feelings n sence we're frends we can work those feelings out:) well sed bug!! see ya dude!
p.s.to Bean
i hope ur ok i really do!!! i mean about me n u n the stomach thingy! i hope ppl find out wat it is n help u!!! :( it makes me sad n scared to even think of NE thing that it could b:'(
4pm
ok well i have to rite an entry now not a letter to bean. well today i went to skool...i dint sleep well on sunday nite at all!! i mean i was up every ten minutes trying to get comfy!! jeese! well ne way my skin is really dry today n red! n for those of u who dont know i have exzeema (w/e) which is dry itchy skin!!! :S and so today i got up n went to skoooly...almost passed out in math n then by 2nd period i felt so brain dead i almost killed nick payne cuz he annoyed me soooo bad! n i had two tests one in science (hard!!) one in history (extremely HARD!!!) and i thunk i failed both...well i mite have passed by a 61% or sumthin i hope...4 perios i drew a pic of a cyclopes in his cave eating men...n watched a mooooovie...n then at lunch i ate n joked around with nik Bob n kenny Bob and then in the hall i met up with juiceBob n goo Bob and we all laughed n talked about Bob...and then i went to class n so on...so by the end of the day i was drained n i got off the bus (i have to peese!!) n came to the libary cuz my pc "aint" hooked up n my dad "aint" living with us rite now he wil be on friday...a + cuz we goet the pc back n a - cuz hes gonna live there too...:S well ne way my day sucked n im hungry!! tomorro we have a half day n thursday im goin to PA to eat dinner!!!! yummy!! stummy growling! n now im leaving to go eat subway!! sub! see ya!
12-4-02 4:03pm
i hate rusty nixon!!!!! last nite he sed he dint care about me i quote "i realised they dont care about me...so i dont car about them." total @$$ if u ask me! i hate him with all my heart now! i new he couldnt b nice for more then an hour! errrrr!!
12-5-02
i rote my frend austin a letter today!!! heheeh i will send this letter austin!! tomorro cuz the snow is too bad today! n we had NO SKOOL!!! n everyone is sooo sad but me! cuz everyone had a field trip (it seems) but me
last nite i went to beans n we played a song together!! so grooovy! but then we went up thigh stairs to listen to greenday n r song sounds like greendays!!! arghy! well toodles ya'll
12-8-02
bad nite last nite! i couldnt sleep! i was up weezing every 3 hours! but then agen
i have terible allergies n micky's house has animal furs n dung all over it lmao (sorry yo) n then agen i dint take my pill...i lost my inhailor n i was screwed! n juice kept rolling on me n hurting me! n laughing in her sleep n being totally weird! n she roled on me like 3 times in one hour!! imagine my thoughts lol welll austin buddy....i dint send my mail yet i will budddy!!! i promise!! just wait until tomorro k?? n bean1! im sorry i dint call u this weekend i was BZ!!!! so toodles..
12-11-02
it is wednesday no skooly...im bord n hyper as hell...n nuthin to do tring ti find some kool ppl in chat rooms nuthin big...wondering where austin is!!!:( heheh n of korse im trying to figiure out wat i did last nite...im really short termed memory...or w/e byebye
12-12-02
well i got up at 7:20am hoped for a skool delay it dint come...so i went to skooly...i had a good day i guess...i was cheerful for once this week...im chattin with a frend now like u all care...bean is kool today shes funny n we r getting along a lot better...i really wanna sing!!!
12-18-02
well im listening to deftones just thunking about shit...deep shit...im so down. y? i dont know! i mean at first i was having a nice day no skool n shit...but then after i got done playing guitar for 2 hours n singing n shit...i got on line to chat n then i was talking to kenny bob n now im down...i told him about father...thats prolly wat did it. i dunno...but im failing tech ed..n mr/perfy scares me! hes like a flirt n flirts with me! i cant get ne thing done ne more! in his class at least. i wanna sing in the band...but then micky wont have ne thing to do...so i asked kenny if he wanted to start a band he plays guitar i sing n we get a bassit n drummer...we're thunking nick miller as drums...n jaime (kennnys frend) on bass...hes teaching her. i hope it works out! i know if i was in aband with kenny then it would work out cuz he knows wat hes doing wen playing the guitar. i mean hey guys (frends) i am still going to make a band with u ppl!! well...i love deftones!!! they take me to a place so far away that i can b me!! ahh!!! lovely feeling!
